It is almost the end of July and I am pretty sure this will be my last Judson blog :( This summer has flown by and still I do not know what to do with my life. I have a diploma and tons of wonderful memories from Judson, but I do not feel prepared to move on. Part of me wishes I could just go back in the fall. I want to be with my friends. School is all I've ever known... it is a crutch of sorts. I remember one of my favorite Rob Bell sermons about change. He said that sometimes we do not want any changes because we know that with change brings loss. I find this beautiful because it reminds me that I'm sad for a reason. It is because I had such a great experience in school. I'm losing something that has been my world for 3 years... of course there is going to be some pain.
I know my life journey will continue, but it will take a while to heal. I feel like a child experiencing growing pains. I do not want to stay in a stagnant position, but the transitional period hurts- like a child's bones when they grow.
I do not know what life will hold for me next. The summer has been filled with tons of post-Australia reunions. I went to Florida to visit my aunt (who faithfully reads my blogs), to Troy to visit my dad's aunts (and trace some genealogy), and all over East Alabama and West Georgia to visit family. Most recently I spent almost 2 weeks with my sweet and patient boyfriend who put up with me being in Australia. :)
As the summer sun begins to fade (and my pockets grow emptier haha), I can feel the weight of "real life" beginning to press firmly on my shoulders. I need to find a job, save money, and start looking for graduate programs (after I find out what in the WORLD I want to do). I am no longer protected by the Judson bubble, but rest assured that it will forever have a place in my heart.
With love and a few tears,
P.S. If you know of a job opening LET ME KNOW :)