As the school year comes to an end, I find myself practicing breathing techniques more often. Even those Hee, Hee, Hoo breathing things they teach you at lamaze classes and I'm not even pregnant...(however, they do work).
Why am I breathing so heavily? In the next three weeks, I have to write two papers equivalent to 20 plus pages, take 5 finals, interview for an RA position for next year, start writing a grant for the GED program, get ready for missions in Perry County this summer, present 2 ten minute presentations, pretend like I know where my life is going, and the list can go on.
Don't get me wrong. I am not complaining about any responsibility that has been given. I am just a little overwhelmed.
The kicker is I realized something that should have been obvious a long time ago...God gives us opportunities to serve Him, we don't have to take on every job that comes our way. God wants to give us the chance to do something for Him, but He gives us the free will and discernment to choose which responsibilities to take on. Why? Because, we aren't God. We don't have the power to save the world. Onle He does. We can't be at all places at once. Only He can. God allows us to help if we so choose.
My point is this: Psalm 46:10
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."
In this overwhelming time, I am really having to be still and recognize God's voice. I am having to discern between which "works" are prompted by God or which "works" are prompted by Ryan? I am having to prioritize between school and service. And, I am having to realize that before I can help anyone else I have to be able to help myself. I can't help myself right now. Why? Because I need to be still. I need to hear God and hear His instruction.
As a Judson student, I am encouraged to participate in many activities, service projects, and leadership roles. I love this! It's one of the reasons why I love Judson so much. People here want to see us grow closer to God. I just have to remember to remember God and be still before I say yes to every opportunity that comes my way.
I will be a junior next year. I will have more responsibilities that I can count, I am sure. But, I have learned many valuable lessons this year. The most valuable is this one; to be still and know that He is God.
I believe I can breathe a little better, now.
With Love from Christ Alone,